Tag Archives: Christianity

Not I, but Christ

16 Jul

I threw myself to the bed at the end of the day. I was exhausted physically and emotionally. I asked myself, “Is it worth it?”

I had to finish two papers, prepare for a debate, a report and make much much research but I can’t start working on any of them because I need to meet someone who needs me. Three hours passed before I got to go home. I prayed, “Lord, is it worth it?”

Early this year, I realized I don’t really know how and what love is. I wanted to know what love is and I want to know how to love. So, where else should I turn to but to the God who is love? I prayed to God that He will teach me. I prayed that He will teach me to love like He does and so He did. He taught me not only through the Bible but as He teaches me through His Word, He also put me through everyday circumstances where I can practice what I learn.

The process is enlightening but it is also painful. I didn’t only learn what love is but I also learned about relationships, priorities, motives, words and actions. So far, the most difficult thing about love is sacrifice. There are times when sacrifices are worth it. It’s those time when I enjoyed the fellowship or when God replaces what I lost with something better.

However, that is not always the case. Lately, I asked God and myself if my sacrifice and suffering are worth it. Then I saw this verse, “I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God who loved me and gave himself for me (Gal. 2:20).”

I asked myself “Is it worth it?” I’ve forgotten. This is not for me and this is not about me. This life I live, I live in Christ. I may lose this life but I’ have eternal life. So I pray that I’ll be a bridge of His blessings, love and His grace. I’ll pray that my hands will always be open to receive and give what God gives me. And when this life comes to its end, I’ll go home to God’s embrace and enjoy Him forever.  Will it be worth it? A thousand times YES! ^_^


God, I need You more.

23 Jun

“God, You told me that You listen to every heartbeat and delight hearing them. But I need You more. I need You more than the next heartbeat.”

18 Jun

In the simplest thoughts, when we truly delight in God, He will be our only desire.

He created us for Him in His image so apart from God, there is no real satisfaction.

Love is spelled as D-I-E

7 Mar


… discovering new and difficult aspects of love along with the question “How should I respond to God’s love for me?” (a question that popped on my head while having my quiet time on the beach) …

How should I respond to God’s love? Jesus replied, “If anyone loves me, he will obey my teaching…” – John 14:23 God wants us to respond to His love by obeying His command. What then is His command? “My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.” -John 15:12 Jesus commanded us to love one another as He loved us.

How did He loved us? “Greater love has no one than this, that He lay down his life for His friends. You are my friends if you do what I command.” -John 15:13-14 To love is to die. This is true love. God sent His Son because He loved us. Jesus so loved His Father that He obeyed His Father’s will even if His Father’s will brought Him to the cross.

Love. akala natin ang simple lang gawin, ang dali lang intindihan. hindi natin alam, sobrang misused at misquoted na pala. Love. akala natin ang sweet, nakakakilig palagi. pero feelings lang pala. Love. hindi lang decision at commitment to accept a person no matter what we see in them. dahil yun ay kulang pa pala.

Hindi natin kelangang mamatay sa katawan at magpaka-martyr para sabihing nagmamahal tayo. Jesus loved the world even before He reached the cross. He loved by dying on Himself everyday. He loved when He put other’s need before His. He loved when He humbled Himself to serve the people and His disciples. He loved when He minister to the sick and the hungry even if His own physical body is weak and hungry. Love is dying to yourself for the sake of others everyday of your life.

But, this shouldn’t depress us. Jesus encouraged us.

“Do not let you hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me.” – John 14:1

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” -John 14:27

“I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.” -John 15:11

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart (note:exclamation point) . I have overcome the world.” – John 16:33

The Importance of Personal Purity

13 Dec

Disclaimer: The video is property of Christ-Commission Fellowship – Ortigas, the church where I’m serving during the weekends  I’m staying in Manila.

For the past few weeks, the Lord is dealing me with purity. Purity has been the topic in our DG at church, DG at campus, spiritual conversations with friends and now in our Sunday Service. I pray you will also learn the importance of personal purity and God’s real heart about sin.

(Soon, I’ll write down what I’ve learned from this week about purity. )

What is Christianity?

1 Dec

The sessions ended early and the participants sighed, breathing for the first time after the sixth session started. For the last two days, we talked about assurance of salvation, fellowship with God, the Spirit-filled life, growth in Christ, Bible study and prayer. The last session was pretty heavy compared to the others and all were relieved to finally be able to breathe again. Who would have thought that the real lesson was just about to begin?

The food was late and everyone is silent, still reflecting on the last session. I know I was when our facilitator started talking. He said a lot of remarkable things but the one that I remember the most was about an atheist he called an ‘intellectual theologian.’

They met this guy while sharing their testimonies around university. They started talking to him and found out that he’s learned about the Bible, he liked Jesus and Christianity and still, he’s an atheist. He said the Christian church doesn’t care about the world and added that Christianity today is irrelevant to people’s lives.

I cannot blame him for saying so. Christians have grouped themselves together and kept the light among themselves. Churches are more concerned on buildings, music, books and doctrines than sharing their faith. We’re so consumed on living the perfect Christian life without knowing we failed on our first attempt. Knowing Christianity is knowing love, the real love that Jesus showed to the weak and the needy. The love that makes him grieve for compassion and work long hours in the day, travelling from city to city. The love that don’t ignore the cries of the widow and the disable, the oppressed in the society. The love that submits and obeys to the absolute will of God. That is Christianity.

God didn’t let me go

26 Nov

Happily-ever-afters do not exist. I learned that early in life. When I was in Grade 3, my father’s business went bankrupt, leaving us mile-high debts that piled up to our heads. He lost his job and months later my mom lost hers. The whole family was devastated. Relatives became uneasy towards us and friends got sick of what I like to call imposed amnesia.  Being the eldest, I’m aware — painfully aware of what my parents have to deal with. With two grade schoolers who needs pambaon at pamasahe and a toddler who needs milk and diaper; gas, electric and water bills; and no job, the future does not look bright. Not to mention all the gossips and criticisms we’ll hear from relatives and old friends. It was all too much for a ten-year old girl to handle. I used to stay up late at night thinking what would become of us. Instead of thinking of what cartoons to watch, I worry of our worst case scenarios. Instead of crying over Cinderella’s torn ball gown, I cry over a real fridge, tv, and truck that someone took to pay our debt. Having no one to talk to since I’m too ashamed to share these to my friends, it’s this time that I really learned to pray and tell God what I really feel. Before, prayer was only part of my routine, an empty task. But as I tell God all my concerns and worries, I find that He always meets my needs. I also learned to read the Bible – seriously this time. And as God and I converse more, I also realized how much He really values me, how much He’s willing to go through to gain my friendship. It struck me that “God so loved the world that He gave His one and only begotten Son.” I was touched that He’s willing to give up the most important Person for Him to gain me. Now I know that God has a wonderful plan for my life. I held on to His promise that if He is so willing to give me His Son what more will He not give for me. I found peace that God is in control and that He is my friend, my Father.  And now that I gave Him my life, now that He’s the one writing my story, I can still, after all, live happily ever after.